Did not sleep well at all leading up to this. Developed a lil imposter syndrome. Having worked mostly for small businesses, if you’re lucky you get taxed for bad healthcare and get a 3% match on your retirement. Most of my jobs rarely gave me raises, sometimes maybe a small bonus. The pay was always okay, and there were usually other benefits to offset it like working remotely, having cool coworkers or working in a nice office. This new job provides me with actual benefits, the likes of which I’ve never had. Because of that I just can’t help feel like the luckiest bastard alive and less like this is something I deserve after paying my fucking dues for two fucking decades.

I got to spend this weekend with family so I feel more grounded and grateful to be where I am at this moment in time.